Oh, Codeine.

+ Nose is almost fixed. After the surgery Monday the 11th I had the worst five days. Semi-conscious, dazed, pain, no eating (no hunger, actually) and four trips back to the hospital. They couldn't take the 5" packaging strips out on the Wednesday but went to do blood tests. I have a vitamin K deficiency and they're trying to figure out why I bled so easily, I have more rvs with the haematologist (Dr. Bilodeau said he just pricked me with a needle to freeze the nose and I filled up and spilled over with blood). After giving six more vials of blood I nearly passed out in the hallway after suddenly gagging a blood clot out in a fountain... badday. I went back Thursday out of fear as I was choking out ping pong ball sized blood clots every hour and a half. Finally Friday they PULLED THEM OUT fuck, it was like a cement stopper refusing to release when he pulled them out. Then, beauty. No more debilitating headache, I could almost smile. I could almost laugh. I shuffled down the hallway without rupturing anything, I ate a small soup in under 40 minutes. I had the worst night sleep to date but I felt so much better. I could almost walk by myself again. Not having thick plastic wrap stuffed behind my eyes sure makes the world better. I still have two plastic strips sutured (where...?) in my nose to keep shit in line but those come out next Wednesday. I'm optimistic - I can already breathe half the time. Shit should be grand.

+/- The first 5 days I didn't do ANYTHING, not even watch an episode of The O.C, I was so out of it. However since then I have consumed:
The O.C. - Season 1
Blow
Vicky Christina Barcelona
Love Actually
3 episodes of Sex + the City
The O.C. - Season 2
(500) Days of Summer
The O.C. - Season 3
Lost - Season 5 (four discs in)
The Hangover
Moulin Rouge

+ Got prescribed some light codeine for the pain which I loved in the beginning, sleep when it's light, wake when it's dark - take more codeine. I had to stop Friday night as I would doze in under 30 seconds then snort (as the packaging was out) which hurt and the sound would wake me, pass out immediately, snort immediately, worst night. BUT I am so holding on to that stuff, just for sleep. It's not much, but just enough to enhance your dreams. That first week I had the longest most vivid adventure dreams... so much happened, so many colors, and no sex? The best one (typically? unfortunately?) was set in Fuji (I never have location dreams!). I was in the middle of a large body of water, there were huge lush jutting cliffs all around, and I could see 360°. So much brown, green and blue it overwhelmed me. I was treading water with Bob, looking for the closest land to swim to. After spotting it we made it ashore a small king bed sized patch of beach. Laid back on our elbows we were just, there. Later, he found an old gameboy. It was nothing but it lasted a long time and... he wanted to be there with me. That's all I needed. _________________________________________________________

Reading - Dead After Dawn - Charlaine whatever, the novels HBO's "True Blood" is based on.

Sportin' - OPI "Royal Rajah Ruby" this morning, a rich red black.

Now it's OPI "Parlez-vous OPI?" my favorite OPI to date. It goes on perfectly lilac. Jellybeans.
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SURPRISE, COCKFAG

+/- The hospital called me yesterday (at 8h am) to give schedule my operation for MONDAY. As in, in THREE DAYS. Oh mai godz. Apparently I could be out for like, 5 weeks, so this whole unemployment things is kind of at a good time because who would keep me if I were hired tomorrow and had to operate in a month, kind of at a terrible time as I will again be unemployed for at least 2 months. So I'm kind of freaked out. Actually, hardly about the actualy process, I'll be under, obvs. More about after. How bruised and broken will my face be, for how long, how will I see without my glasses now (my eyes have already adjusted to the prescription and become lazy on their own) and most importantly, how will I breath through my mouth for so many weeks!? I can't sleep, can't concentrate when I can't breath through my nose, the whole reason I'm in the ten year nasal problem, med addicted state. Good luck, Cassandra, you will most likely fail again.

+ I have chamomile in my belly.
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Reading - Breaking Dawn. Again ...I know.

Sportin' - OPI "Can you Tapas this?" Looks blood reb brown in the bottle, goes on magnificently warm chocolate. 2nd favorite ever.
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2010

- I got fired for absolute bullshit - un-employed again.

+ Christmas Eve at Matt and Caro's and then the Day at our place including Steph for desert was amazing, really busy and fun and alcohol filled. just came back from Wakefield, those visits are always stellar. Dad and I went for breakfast at the Aupengrousse ahahah really tasty, actually, excellent bacon. Got a digital camera to replace the last one which actually broke in Wakefield this summer. Har. Really wonderful family times all week.

+ Kim just left after spending New Years in my basement. I know we're fucking lame but she drank 3/4 of a 1.5 litre bottle of wine and I had half a 40 of rum... I don't know where she hides her tolerance but man, she has it. Plus we've been getting closer over the past few months and especially the past few weeks, I wish it wasn't over "breakup circumstances" but she wants me around and I'll take this Friendship Development. Whenever we're together I remember that our quirks, sounds, mannerisms are super in sync and we're a lot of the same person. Yay Kim.

+ I got kissed on New Years. I had a date. I made out in my car like I was 17, with a 24 year old scruffy world traveler. I am going to see him again.

+ Why the fuck did the world only decide to call 2000-2009 "The Aughts" at the end of 2009??? I would have rocked that term all decade! That shit is hilarious, I love it. Also going to start using "keen" and "natürlich" and all the other dutch words I miss.

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